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AN AUTHORS ACKNOWLEDGEMENT

"All You Need is Love. All You Need is Love.  All You Need is Love, Love. Love is All You Need." 

-John Lennon & Sir Paul McCartney, 1967


There was a time when I sat down to write my story with venom and anger.
To unload deep pains of guilt and fear as my own personal covered wagon across the plains.
It wasn't until this past year, that I received an angelic validation from one of Heaven's most beautiful daughters, my friend and teacher, Jodi Ann.
It was her words that rang like a bell of truth, and have become my primary compass when making decisions for myself.
"To make a choice out of fear, worry, or guilt, will only bring more of what you do not want in the first place. Fear, worry, and guilt. So when evaluating choices, ask yourself, am I doing this because I am afraid that, or if I don't I would feel guilty, or but if I don't I worry......immediately, and in the best way you know possible, repeat out loud CANCEL/CLEAR/DELETE, turn the other cheek and walk in the direction of light."

Choose Love, and Love will Choose You
Choose Life, and Life will Bless You
Choose Fear, and it will Find You
Choose Worry, and Worry For Evermore

My story has not been written to criticize The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.
I celebrate it as the foundation on which my life's spiritual journey rests.
My story has not been written to validate my homosexuality or my history of addiction.
It is a light in the dark to those that may believe they are all alone in their suffering.
My story is not a guidebook or a mystery that I have somehow unlocked an unknown secret.
We all have a soul. We all just need to be reminded that each of us is already perfect when we arrive in this existence, because we are God's creation, and our Creator only wants what we want out of this life.

I welcome your feedback, different perspectives, and life experiences.
It is as we share with each other our highest peaks and lowest valleys, that we begin to wipe darkness clear from the face of this Earth.

I love each of you.
Please know that we have come together not by chance.
I asked you to teach me your ways, we agreed to lean on each other, and we talked with sheer joy about the day when we would leave our physical bodies, remember our higher selves, and be reunited together, now having completed another step on the ladder of eternal progression.

RYAN BELIEF:
Believe me, I do not love everyone, and I am not this loving all of the time.
But I have found when I am not loving someone, it's usually because I am not enjoying their behavior.
And their behavior is actually my behavior.
You see, everyone is a reflection of ourselves.
That is how we are attracted to one another to begin with.
So when you feel those eyeballs about to roll, or feel disgusted with someones choice of vocabulary, or clothing style, etc.......Know you are in discomfort, because you are actually, looking in a mirror.

LUVYAMEENT!

Scripture References for Further Study
The King James Version of the Holy Bible, Mark 12:30-31
"And thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all they heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind, and with all thy strength: this is the first commandment.
And the second is like, namely this, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself. There is none other commandment greater than these."

 The King James Version of the Holy Bible, 1 Corinthians 13:4-8
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.  It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.  Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.  It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.  Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away."

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